The hell is still going on

For the people that read the post before, if you thought it was bad, good news fellas....... it gets worse.

I still miss her, I still think of her, and I have come to a kind of cross road and deception in which I am deciding if love, illusions, and all that other crap are worth it, after a lot of thinking i guess not.

The trouble here is that i have been alone not for that long, but as some of you may think i feel to damn lonely, and trust me i dont want to be alone for a long time its really shitty being this way.

Ok lets change the subject a little bit apart me being blue, depressed or just sad or melancholique. Today was also shitty cuz i had french and development exams, they were the worse, and apart me being sad, you can only guess how i am feeling today.

Ohhh now i remember there is also one thing that is worse than hell, talking to the girl and trying to be like nothing happened because you dont want to make feel the other person like crap, okay i fell like hell and sometimes this depression is worse than what i guessed so fucking what????

You know what i dont wanna write anymore, i hope tomorrow its going to be another day and i'll feel better if not i dont know what im going to do.


Furby







When you look at the moon
you'll probably see a shade
for me its just another story
another story of being without you

Today and now

Okay apart from the welcome message this is the real first message.

Today some people might consider my day as shitty, first of all cuz i might say its kind of blue, and thats just the way i feel it right now, whys that, cuz today a person i wanted to be with sent me right down the toilet.

I know i might be making it a bit exagerated, but ill say the stuff as they were:

This girl Im talking about was my girlfriend some time ago, but nowadays i wanted her to be back with me and after over 2 weeks thinking about it she told me she was also dating another guy, and that she like me more as a friend.

You can only imagine what went into my mind, i had really placed my heart on getting back with her, but after all i am not the one with those decisions, anyway we kept as friends and its going to be kind of harsh cuz as you might know; having a person as a friend after you want to be really with her its really really hard, anyway i guess i have no choice other than accept it.

Well im concentrating my day in this event cuz im feeling really blue right now but anyway i also start exams to day so that makes it really worse but anyway i have to try to get over it.

If somebody wants to make my day or cheer me up any comment is really welcomed.

I guess i gotta go cuz im also working right now, but anybody who read this, thanks for the time.


Furby





If life is over you
take it as it comes
but not everything
is as good as it may come

What the hell is this???

Okay this is created by me of course to tell anybody that wants to know whats on my mind, or see what the hell is up with me.

Why's this? Its a kind of experiment and a way for me to remember what the heck I'm going through day by day, cuz sometimes are shitty, sometimes are great but, why not remember it.

From time to time I'm going to post some stuff i do, pics, perhaps movies, and of course the way i feel and stuff like that I dont know why im really dong this but it might be interesting.

By the way right now I'm writting in english but i dont really know what language i'm going to use all the time, from time to time it will be english, sometimes spanish and if i feel like it maybe french.

Anyway for everybody welcome, and enjoy whats on my mind.

Furby